Greetings! My name is Vinnie and that’s my adorable furry friend Hero. Welcome to my website and first-ever blog entry! I’m really happy you found your way here. Where do I even begin? It feels like there is so much to tell you. Those close to me will attest that I’m not known for brevity in my writing, but I’m going to try to keep my entries as concise and easily digestible as possible. I’m here because I want to share my story with you. I’m a 44 year old AFAB, queer, neurodivergent, postmenopausal person who just came out to my family and friends as transgender, nonbinary, and transmasculine. Currently, I mostly use the pronouns they/them, but I am comfortable with any pronouns since I see myself as fairly equal parts of masculine and feminine. 

Although I’ve been this way for my entire life, recognizing it in my conscious awareness is a very new thing for me. I had wondered if I was trans for many years, but around 12-18 months ago I began receiving numerous, deliberate signs from the Universe. Once I started paying attention to them, I could no longer ignore that I needed to seriously explore this aspect of my being. Over the past several months I dove into books, documentaries, podcasts, and social media accounts all geared towards gender identity (the “Education” tab on the website has a list of many of these resources). I became particularly drawn to transmasculine people and their stories. The more I listened and observed, the more obvious it became to me that I inhabit a parallel identity to most of them. I saw myself in the recollections of their childhoods, and in their confusion and struggles as they matured. So many things about my own past made so much more sense when I viewed them through the lens of someone whose gender identity is not binary. I also observed their unmistakable joy once they finally accepted and embraced their true identity. I knew I wanted to follow the same path towards my own authenticity. 

There was a decent amount of information and resources for me to turn to when I needed help discerning how I felt inside. However, I didn’t come across very many people who were making these huge self-discoveries in their forties. It can sometimes be difficult to feel validated when looking for a common thread with a teenager or young adult, especially in light of the hormone disasters that being postmenopausal is fraught with. This is exactly why I wanted to start this blog. I’m at an extraordinarily pivotal moment in my life where I have decided that I want to start medically transitioning towards a more masculine appearance. I want to chronicle this journey and bring you along with me. My hope is to be able to reach at least one other person out there like me who is searching for answers. If they can see themselves reflected in anything I have to say, then this project will be successful. I also hope to forge connections and community with other trans and nonbinary folx.

Thank you for being here with me! If you’d like to see more content, you can follow me on Instagram, Tik Tok, or YouTube – all links are right here on my webpage. 

Until next time!